| video update |
[Apr. 22nd, 2009|02:08 pm] |
I'm deleting my last video update because this one is better. I shot it with my new computer's webcam. It's not bad...and I'm using flickr now, instead of photobucket because photobucket seems to have a lag to it.
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| 2.5 years on T |
[Aug. 14th, 2006|09:01 pm] |
Look, I finally grew facial hair:
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| one year |
[Jan. 25th, 2005|02:26 pm] |
on the 30th, i'll have been on tesosterone for a full year. what a great year it's been. i'm so happy i made this decision. my whole life i was always searching for something, trying to find what made me different so i could feel adjusted and lucky me i figured my shit out in my early twenties rather than further down the road.
i don't really feel like breaking anything down. i just want to let it be what it is.
here's a movie. it's 3 MB, if you have dialup it's going to take a few minutes. you will also probably need quicktime. i think it's 9 seconds long and just to warn you, i have a lot of tics so don't make fun of me. this is the best movie i took because i'm the least twitchy. |
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| social transittion |
[Jan. 10th, 2005|12:54 am] |
i feel like i've successfully transitioned socially. i feel more at home with myself and i love my body (minus my man boobs). i feel good. i take pride in myself and i have self-esteem.
the end. |
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| nine months! |
[Nov. 2nd, 2004|06:39 pm] |
i'm three months short of a year. looking back it's amazing how much i've changed physically, mentally and emotionally. i'm sure i structure my writing differently now because my thought processes are different. the big wow part of my transition is over, i think. it's steadied now and stuff is still happening but it's not such a big deal.
comparison pics:
nine months. 
three months.
 
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| photos. |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|01:30 pm] |
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pre-T
 
7.5 months
 
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| bad hair |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|10:16 pm] |
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man. my hair is unfortunate in those new pics. i need a haircut BAD. |
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| six months, two weeks |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|04:21 pm] |
comparison photos. i think my face changed a lot this month.
pre T
3 months
  5 months  
6 months  
yeah. i think a lot has changed. |
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| 6 months |
[Aug. 7th, 2004|09:56 pm] |
voice dropped again. it sounds pretty good, although i wish it was deeper still.
i pass for the most part. in omaha, the only people that called me she were people that had known me from before and just fucked up and one bartender at the brothers.
hair growth continues, hair loss continues. i'm getting a lot broader. my belly is even bigger. we took pictures to document it. it's not too bad. (evidently i'm really into short, simple sentences tonight...)
i'll have facial comparison pictures up soon, and finally body comparison photos. i just have to develop film and scan stuff in.
i think that my face finally made a bigger change. i seem to be passing without speaking, finally.
acne sucks. i need to take better care of my skin.
my libido has leveled out, finally. i jerk off once a day (usually) compared to two or three times a day. i'm also no longer constantly trying to get on my girlfriend, which is probably good. i could just be depressed though.
i want chest surgery so fucking bad. so bad. give me money. now, please. |
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| 4.5 months |
[Jun. 11th, 2004|04:03 pm] |
so i can update i guess. i'm not very good at this month-by-month stuff.
4.5 months
face: my jaw is defined now. i was shaving this morning and realized that it protrudes and is very much there. i have acne but i don't think it's too bad. it shows up in pictures but i don't look like a garbage pail kid or anything. facial hair is pretty much still not there, except for my jr high dirtlip (which must be shaved off immediately after growing) and a few dark hairs here and there. my sideburns filled out a little bit but have not grown down at all. in due time.
body: i'm getting muscles all over. my calves have taken on a definte male shape, in my opinion. my hips and ass continue to migrate upwards and my body is so much straighter now. i look in the mirror and aside from my waist (which probably won't go away due to my skelatal structure) and chest, i really like what i see. my shoulders are muscular, my arms are getting defined (certainly not "cut" or "hard" though) and my belly is about twice as big as it was preT.
voice: male and deep. i wish i had a way to record my voice, for documentation's sake. i have no preT recordings either. oh well. when i sing i can hit low nots that i never thought would be possible. i've been working on my inflection and where my voice comes from because i'm not a fan of "trannyboy voice." it's coming from my chest and i don't think i sound too gay. if you really want to hear my voice you can call my cellphone. i never answer it so you can listen to my voice mail message. (773.744.2479)
hair: my belly is getting all kinds of hairy. so are my legs (my thighs are an explosion of thick, curly, dark hair) and my arms (but not as much as other places).
disposition: i don't exactly know what's changed but i feel more logical and steady. i've always kind of been emotionally detached and i think that it might've increased in the past few months. my communication is about the same, maybe better because i can remove myself from situations even easier than i could before. i will eventually need to work on this detachment to function as a healthy human being but for now it's ok. i'm also much more intersted in certain things (like getting my A+ certification, bettering my living, etc.) and i feel a lot healthier than i have in the past. not to mention happier (even with all the crap that's going on in my life.)
if i ever get someone to take pictures of me with a digital camera, i'll post pics. but don't count on it.
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| hairs |
[May. 28th, 2004|05:33 pm] |
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i finally have 4 chin hairs. go me. my dirt lip is kinda gross and my sideburns are coming in slowly. that's all. |
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| wackmas |
[May. 25th, 2004|11:03 pm] |
here are some comparison photos:
3 months front vs. 4 months front
3 months side vs. 4 months side
( Read more... ) |
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| passing |
[Apr. 29th, 2004|01:07 am] |
i've been passing pretty frequently. i'm coming up on three months in a few days. my voice is passable now, so even if my appearance isn't completely male to people, my voice is. the rest of it is the same old progressions. acne, hair, genital growth, appetite, jawline, thickening moustache, beer belly. oh, and i have one dark chin hair. it's really sexy.
katie and i took a ferry while in seattle and the man who took the money gave me a discount for being "15 to 18 years old." i'm pretty sure he thought i was katie's little brother, especially since she looks older than her age (for the record, i'm a few years older than her.) and today, i was with her picking up some shoes for her burlesqe troop and a man at the shoe store started asking me questions about my half-sleeve and if it hurt and stuff. he asked me how old i was and i lied and said i was 19 (i'm 23) and he was really suprised and said i look a lot younger than that. sweet.
i cut myself shaving for the first time today. not too bad, the sting of the after-shave felt good.
pictures soon. |
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| pictures |
[Apr. 10th, 2004|07:13 pm] |
ok, here's some comparison pics. they're just taken with my shitty webcam, sorry dudes..
2.5 months
 
pre-T
i see a definite change. and i'm finally beginning to find myself attractive.
tiny update: voice is still dropping. i'm growing a moustache and i'm ALWAYS hungry. my body is becoming firmer all over axcept for my belly, which has grown quite a bit. i don't mind it though. the way i smell down there has changed. i'm not sure i like it. my breasts have gone completely soft, which was an odd realization. i'm feeling okay with it all though. |
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| 4th shot (weekly shots now) |
[Apr. 2nd, 2004|01:39 pm] |
my body is straightening out. my thighs are smaller and my pants fall off of my ass. my belly is getting bigger and hairier. i have a happy trail. my upper lip needs to be shaved more often than i shave it. the sides of my face are getting more peach fuzz and the peach fuzz is getting a little thicker. my eyebrows are out of control.
my voice is still dropping, slowly but surely. alcohol and marijuana make it crack horribly. sometimes it comes out of my mouth and i don't know who got inside of me and started talking. sometimes it sounds as if i never started t.
my junk is huge, in comparision to pre t. i'm about an inch not erect and an inch.5 when i am erect. when i'm erect it sticks out of the hood a bit. it's also really thick. it's girth has surprised me. i've had an uncontrolable desire to penetrate with it and it breaks my heart that i can't.
muscles continue to grow. my beer logs (note: the fat that i developed on my arms from drinking lots of beer) have turned into muscle. i'm a lot better at arm wrestling than i used to be. my legs are also more muscular. you can see a shelf in my calf now. i should really work out.
yes. |
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